Go to school.

So yeah, fine, I'm overwhelmed.
too much at once, its always hot outside and the fucking neighbors dog bit me.

The last thing I needed was this reminded that no one is any different than me - or anyone else.
No trust, no loyalty, no respect, no honesty and apparently no remorse.

You have been such an amazing disappointment and I really feel bad that I've fallen for all of this, but when everyone else thinks its 'great' - I tend to believe them.

I can't wait to leave, I can't wait to forget you, I can't wait to find someone who won't let me down and I can't wait until life isn't so up and down.

I should've stuck with Lindy while I had the chance.

At Least I'm Not As Sad As I Used To Be.

So I left, that is it.
That’s my life, nothing is sacred.
I don’t keep friends, I keep acquainted,
I’m not a prophet, but I’m here to profit.

That’s all, I’m gone!
That’s my life, nothing is sacred.
I don’t fall in love, I just fake it.

Fun. - Aim and Ignite. Album of the year.

I still do this.

Nicotine in the morning,
Ecstasy in the afternoon.
What else should I do?
I'm so busy chasing you.

No, its not a burden to be so completely incoherent all the time.
We get by just fine,
with our cheap thrills and red wine.

I am not your best friend and I am not the best man.

This

Tell your friends, "hey come over and we'll talk, you bring the drinks - I'll bring the bad news.
Everyone feels like you.

Tell your Dad to come over and we'll talk, you bring your drink - I'll bring the fuck you's.

Young man, you're not alone.
Tell your girlfriend you need her to be there because you can't sleep with your mind on all these things.

I want to get away, even for a year.

Victim

It hasn't bothered me that I'm only half of who I could be and I think thats because of the scenery around me. I can look to the left or right and rationalize any stupid decision or purchase. I accept it and I move on. The past week or so, once again, have differed from the previous couple weeks and I'm having a really good time trying to keep up. A few things have been consistent and as much as I was sure I didn't care if they were there, I'm glad I've got all of the things I have - regardless of how much I need it.