Call me old...

I don't want to 'party', I don't want to forget what I did the night before...I just want to relax.

I don't know, I don't care.

I just wish something was moving forward.
I don't want to stay at this pace, I don't want to fall behind.

Nothing Gets Crossed Out

Man, the future is kinda scary.
Sure I'm off to a good start but in 4 months everything will look even more blurry than it does now.

I just want to settle, I just want to be an average person - who works harder than most other 'average' people.


Who knows.

Go to school.

So yeah, fine, I'm overwhelmed.
too much at once, its always hot outside and the fucking neighbors dog bit me.

The last thing I needed was this reminded that no one is any different than me - or anyone else.
No trust, no loyalty, no respect, no honesty and apparently no remorse.

You have been such an amazing disappointment and I really feel bad that I've fallen for all of this, but when everyone else thinks its 'great' - I tend to believe them.

I can't wait to leave, I can't wait to forget you, I can't wait to find someone who won't let me down and I can't wait until life isn't so up and down.

I should've stuck with Lindy while I had the chance.

At Least I'm Not As Sad As I Used To Be.

So I left, that is it.
That’s my life, nothing is sacred.
I don’t keep friends, I keep acquainted,
I’m not a prophet, but I’m here to profit.

That’s all, I’m gone!
That’s my life, nothing is sacred.
I don’t fall in love, I just fake it.

Fun. - Aim and Ignite. Album of the year.

I still do this.

Nicotine in the morning,
Ecstasy in the afternoon.
What else should I do?
I'm so busy chasing you.

No, its not a burden to be so completely incoherent all the time.
We get by just fine,
with our cheap thrills and red wine.

I am not your best friend and I am not the best man.