Avalon

from Anthony Green is somehow a really great cd. really simple, really relaxing.

anyway, sorry I've been busy the past 3 days. Apparently I can actually hang out and have a good time with people, as opposed to just sitting here talking about how much I miss it.

I need to sleep.

Wrong.

I was almost sure that working 10 hours a week at the House as opposed to 40-60 would ensure that other people would have to do their work and it wouldn't get left for me.

Whoa!

I'll be 20 in almost a little over 2 weeks and it pains me that I couldn't get out to restock my alcohol supply this week.
I just read over that and realized how much it doesn't make sense.
Oh well, regardless. I'll be 20 and I don't really think that I ever thought or imagined I'd be in such a good spot when I was 20.
I have a steady job that - in theory - should take me through December. I have a summer job that is already more demanding than it should be but in a month or two I'll be sort of phased out, so it'll be more relaxing and I just feel like things are budding. The chips are falling into place, so to speak.
I'm very excited to go away to Ocean City for a week. Regardless of the fact that besides Chris, I won't really know/want to be around anyone I'm going with I feel like its something I've needed. I miss the up all night, story telling, interaction. I don't get it too much anymore. Maybe on Fridays and Saturdays if I'm lucky.

Lets put this in perspective: Alex Kahan is a fucking awesome dude, how come I'm never with him?
Fro or no fro, he is still top notch. best regards.

OH. I almost forgot.
My brother in law(almost brother in law?) brought home blueberry beer last weekend and I had one(or two?) and they it was awesome.

Speaking of awesome, heres a few you can ponder:
New The Chariot/MeWithoutYou cd's soon.
Alcohol.
Money.
Stable jobs.
Set schedules.
Awesome people.
Girls that hold conversations
and finally, Party Drugs. Party drugs are sick, kid.

Last thing on the docket: I haven't thought about you in 2 weeks now, so thank you for everything you said.
Now if I could only stop thinking about the other 'you'. You're super and I'm an idiot.

New Conor Oberst.

I woke up at 4 to realize that there isn't a baseball game tonight. fail.
Fortunately, I'm very awake and I got to listen to the new Conor Oberst cd. mmm.

Busy night, lets hope I don't lock my keys in my car again. mm wings.

Low fuel.

The morning commute was fucking terrible. 45 minutes to get home. so now it is nearing 10am and I still am not ready to sleep.
I sincerely hope 5 hours will be enough.

Also, tonight's shift will consist of burning 'best of' and/or discographies of most artists on my itunes and emptying the paper bin.

Goodnight, I'll see you at 4pm

A lyric

from Worse Than Alone:

"A smile I can't perfect.
A figure I can't figure out.
A weight heavily on my mind.

But I love my life and I'll drink to that."

hit home.

4:47

It says something about my attention span that the top 3 most played songs on itunes are 1-3 minutes long. No, they aren't my favorites either.

Check out Margot and the Nuclear So and So's. Really honest stuff.