In The Morning and Amazing.

This is a perfect example of one of my main flaws. I over-think too much and I worry about everything.

I'll start with this, for once: The first word that comes to mind to describe how life is for me right now is perfect. Things aren't perfect but trust me, they are near perfect. I have more 'friends' that I can see, I'm in a relationship with an amazing girl who, in less than a month, has treated me better than anyone else I've ever been with, and I have an amazing job making a lot of money.

This is exactly how I wanted things to be and it feels great. Once again, I can't stop thinking about the fall-out process that is going to ensue and you know, I really do have an outstanding bout of confidence and optimism that I'll be fine with whatever happens. This is all so surreal to me but I do get this much:
It took me 2 or 3 months to get myself to be the person I want to be, it took me a little over a month to look like the guy I want to be and it even took ONLY 8 months to let the things I want from life to fall into place. They did, they are here, I'm ecstatic and as nervous as I am that I'll miss a beat or fuck something up. It never seems to happen.

I'm glad I get drunk and let things that a 'boyfriend' typically shouldn't tell his 'girlfriend' slip out sometimes because that's the way I've become. I don't ever want to be afraid to tell anyone anything again and you've just made that so much easier for me.

Things fell into place, things are amazing and I am completely content.

I'll wrap it up with this: I still cherish the hours of the day I spend worrying about mutual feelings, the future and how things will end up because every time I'm feeling insecure someone or something comes along and makes me realize that I should feel great about what's happening now and the things that I DO have in place for the future.